The Compulsive Ramblings Of A Philotherian: Oh what a week it's been!

This has been one of those "I want to hurl myself off of a cliff" type weeks. Everything was all good Monday and up into Tuesday. I knew Tuesday was going to be weird when I called home on my break. LaVaughn was in a weird mood and we just weren't having a civil conversation at all! So naturally, we both got pissed at each other and basically just sat on the phones, slowly breathing into one another's ear.

I tried to liven the mood by saying, "At least we don't have anything else to do the rest of the week!". That's when she broke the news that we had to take my aunt to her doctors appointment Thursday. This is nothing new, I drive her to Cape all the time, what was depressing was the time we had to be there... 10:30 in the morning!

Let me start by saying that I ADORE my aunt and would do anything for her, including taking her to her AM appointments, which I do and which I did.

For those that don't know, I suffer from severe anxiety when it comes to my sleeping patterns. I know, I'm weird. I like to keep a schedule when I go to sleep, which is 4:30ish in the morning. If I have to stay up past like 5:30 AM or go to bed before 3:30 AM, I have an anxiety attack. I can't explain it, but I guess that's how anxiety works. I've been this way since my grandma passed away in 2009.

Wednesday was all a blur. I was anxious all day, worrying about being able to fall asleep so that I could get up Thursday morning and drive her to Cape. I tried to keep my mind as far from the thought of that as possible, so I kept busy by completely re-organizing the cabinets/pantries. It was a tedious job, but everything looks so much better now! After that I made 4 batches of HPW.

I tried to go to bed at like midnight and ended up tossing and turning for over an hour before finally passing out. I refuse to look at clocks when I'm trying to sleep, so I honestly don't know what time I feel asleep, I just know it was before 2:30. I ended up waking up minutes before 5 AM and went to the bedroom to try and sleep for another couple hours -- I was sleeping in the living room to avoid being woken up by the gliders -- but that failed miserably. I did pass out for about 15 minutes, then I just got up at 6 and got ready.

I'm going to fast-forward through Thursday. Everything went fine at the doctors and we ended up making it home around 3. We did have a hellish drive up there, though. We ran into well over 6 road crews working on the road, it was horrible.

I made it all the way until 3:30 AM before I called it a night. Of course, I passed out off and on throughout the night, but that's okay with me.

I haven't done much today, I'm actually in the process of playing the Sims. I took joey pictures as soon as I got up and have been taking it easy the rest of the day. I'm also eBay shopping, which is never good. I've already put a bid in on a Juicy Couture purse and Batman Arkham Night! It's a terrible and expensive habit. In my defense I am trying to sell a couple games that I despise -- minus the previously mentioned Tomb Raider, that one I'm keeping.

So, that's my week. I'm actually looking forward to work tomorrow. Until next time...

Love & Peace

-Megan

Pictures from Wednesday: