Considering I’ve been at one of the lowest points in my life in the last few weeks, I thought that blogging would be a decent and much needed distraction. I’ve talked about my anxiety numerous times here, so there no need to go over it again. I’ve always attributed every bad thing happening to me or my animals to be due to my blogging or posting on social media.
Crazy, right?
Anxiety does some very strange things to your mind. I think the only thing that keeps me sane is the fact that I acknowledge how crazy or insane things sound. I know where to draw the line, for the most part. However, that doesn’t keep my mind from taking something minuscule and absolutely running a marathon with it.
My sister and I lost our precious 16 year old angel, Una, on the 25th of last month and I swear to God it’s almost killed me. After Milla and Zoe passed in 2018, I clung to Una even harder. She was part of my soul and with me in every aspect of my life. The only time we were apart was when I was a work.
I’m still not okay and I don’t know that I ever will be.
I can’t talk about it, so I’m going to stop there and will most likely never bring it up again because it hurts too much and makes me want to cry. I already cry daily… numerous times usually.
With that being said, I think blogging would be a nice outlet for me. I feel like I have no drive to take pictures anymore, so maybe this will help spark one of my absolute favorite things in the world.
Don’t hold your breath, cause I won’t.
Maybe I’ll pop in tomorrow or some day soon with a little recap of my life from the last… idk, 18 months? 20? It was around March of 2023 when I posted last. So there’s that. Hope everyone is doing well, until next time…
